Goddammit, feels so sucky being so shy and all.
I lack communication skills.
Firstly my Chinese is crap, I stammer each time I try to complete an answer to somebody, hesitating each syllable and doing it with poor pronunciation. Sometimes I don't understand what others are speaking (in Chinese), and really I just can't read words for nuts. So I can't talk to anybody using Chinese.
Secondly usually people can go on and on and on in their conversation. Non-stop, random topics, phone calls lasting more then 30 minutes. I don't know how, seriously, my thoughts go blank just after awhile, and I can't continue the conversation, resulting in awkward silences.
Thirdly I don't know where to face while conversing, I like to avoid eye contact much because I don't know, just really uncomfortable to me.

That's why I tend to not socialize that much, although I want to.
...Oh well. The feeling sucks pretty much, and I need to get rid of that.

cp-kia.
he is a kid.
who jumps around.
need i say more?

i know, no need tell me.
i like it dull and plain.
and eh, this is my blog,
so i reserve the rights
to rant about whatever
i want, thank you.

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