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Friday, April 24, 2009
kinda regret something..

seeing all my friends passing out from their cca (uniformed groups), makes me envious. i could have been like that. they have endured 4 years of training, be it fun or torture, but at the end of it all, they have managed to finish it. i quitted halfway through, when i'm already in for 2 years+.

i was too weak, more of mentally. honestly, the few reasons why i quit goes - too boring, people inside cca was sucky, im afraid to interact, waste of time. i almost told the teacher that the reason i quitted was - "i already wasted 2 years of my life, i don't want to waste anymore". another reason was that cca points cannot be counted if i want to go poly (although this is being argued, so im not fully sure about it). and i also thought it is not worth it to not enjoy my cca, whats the point of not looking forward to a cca when ccas is supposed to be fun? i remember way back then, sec1, when i applied for my cca, my reason was to get cca points (and probably due to influence) and it seems cool.

its all my fault in the end, i've probably missed out alot, really alot. it could've been an opportunity to interact with my friends, something that i lack doing. it could've been something that i learnt to do so many times, to overcome any hardship. could've been cca points that can help at the very least, portfolio. it could've been fun, only because of all the negative thoughts and my shyness that makes it a torture. i admit, i don't like the guys as they make fun of me and all, but i believe with more respect, things can be ironed out.
but i quitted, main reason of not wasting time, but what do i really do in the end? i doubt i've used the time to the fullest. i've only gained the rank of a quitter. sounds ironical as my approach to my training, i've been drummed into overcome obstacles, mental and physical, but i gave in to this.

even shaikh when back to ncc in the end, he quitted for a period, but went back. for me i thought it was too late, might as well not go. but no, it wasn't, i was just too lazy. this is what i get in the end.

but then,
there is no use regretting.
i've been told, that we should regret nothing.


disclaimer

readers
are entering
the realm of
randomness and
retardedness.


yours truly

cp-kia.
he is a kid.
who jumps around.
need i say more?

justsaying


i know, no need tell me.
i like it dull and plain.
and eh, this is my blog,
so i reserve the rights
to rant about whatever
i want, thank you.

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