Wednesday, July 01, 2009
the 2nd half of 2009 starts today.
hell yes it was fast.
inching ever closer to the o's.
but i've felt never in my life so motivated. got to keep this momentum all the way. troubles balancing my time with gym and training, but have to find all ways possible. limit computer time to just less then 2 hours. and cut out slacking time, focused and productive use of time all day round. social life is developing, was a drastic change when compared to about 1 or 2 months back, and i got to thank jonny for that.
maybe its because i realise its time to just let down all silly thoughts that would never happen, something that are never true, just overthinking resulting in stupid thoughts that put your morale down. but you always thought its true, making it a self fulfilling prophecy. all these while im lying supine, staring blankly towards the ceiling, and my mind's narrated itself.
no longer am i afraid to make a fool of myself, and to approach, to initiate. at least not as bad anymore. i shudder at the thought of talking. how much is your face worth? thicken it. in life, you might only have one chance to do something, stakes might be high but if you never take the risk, you'll never know what you would had missed. don't be afraid of anything. fear is only an emotion. and try everything. face your dislikes, your hates, your fears. but of course, don't be reckless. one step at a time.
i might say i had improved from the past, but what awaits me is more challenges, ahead of more challenging challenges.
i got a new phone. yay. finally i can listen to music on the go. but i wanna renew more things. next on the list - new hair. :D
chinese orals coming soon. then listening not long after. sure i am nervous. got to need to realise the importance of being bilingual.
basically all days from now i'm gonna keep on doing tys, cluster papers, homeworks, revising. working towards my goal. hopefully o's will then be a breeze.
believe, cp, believe.