Friday, July 31, 2009
Thought one.
I now know. I now realise. I now understand.
Main reason of quitting NCC - the mockery.
Main reason of my dislikes of certain classmates during the lower secondary times - the mockery.
Main reason of people I hate - the mockery.
Partly.
No way. Why bother about the comments made from people who are just too insignificant. The ostracising that takes place right in front of me, which I can fully symphatise. But why, did I let it affect me till this extent? Looking at how others deal with the situation, I'm just put to shame. How easily I give up over such a little matter. All these trainings, what did it taught me? Perseverence, patience, not pessimism. Ironic, it seems, but yeah. In life you have to be thick skinned, and learn to take heavy criticism. This is how life goes. Nobody likes it, but why do you need to care so much about it. Every single opportunity took, mock and mock and mock. They find such joy over such lame matters - tells you alot of their maturity. Well, if you don't like the people don't mix with them, but don't get affected by them. What importance do they weigh in your life. Enough said.
Thought two.
Too bad, life's no longer one that you could take you own sweet time, to dilly-dally your day away, especially in this country you're living. Breather? What breather, this no such thing as having a breather here. Everything is moving at full speed, you don't even get time to 'stop and stare', admiring the things around you. Patience? In modern times, patience is naught. Everything people wants, people gets, at the very instant. Fast food restaurant. Eat it quick - No time to savour. I'm guilty of that, I'm the one who looks rushed and wants to get things done quickly, and the time saved from it? Waste it. In the end, what's the use?
Watching my household paper calendar gets thinnier everyday...
Thought teh ri.
So unlike me. But really, is this what I want. Maybe not, but hopefully this is the direction of life I am heading towards.
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Less of the emotional thoughts and talk with less emotions involved...
I am hoping to go through the main course that I want to, NP FSV. Need to start researching about it. SP Interview was kinda crap but I didn't really wanted the course anyway. And I've been playing soccer today, and the joy in it stays. Although I suck in it. Life does not let me train much these days, but ok. Life hasn't been that colourful this week.
You guys should go to facebook and check my statuses to really know whats really going on in my life. Long facebook statuses for the win.