Monday, August 10, 2009
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ok, human changes, and i fall easily to persuasion and am subject to change very much.
i suddenly feel the itch to play soccer, i mean i always liked it, but i now like it alot more... and i'm not that good, so its time to train abit to sweat your stress away. team sports are sometimes fun and alot more competitive - upping the intensity of the game, tingling in adrenaline and excitement, therefore more fun. but it just sucks when it goes down to blames. i mean team sport - everyone is ONE. it is never fun to shoulder the derogatory remarks from your teammates, demoralising you in the most crucial of times.
watched 'up' on friday. been quite a while since i watched a movie that i like. that really has meaning. quite a good show. and i'm going to watch 'where got ghost' next week. movies are something that i should engage in... if i want to know what it really takes to be a director, especially if i aspire to be one.
maybe at the start, when you get to know someone or something, there's a bunch to know, learn, talk, experiment, try... list goes on. example, the more you play a game the more boring it gets, because its the same old thing. all becomes routinal, mundane, repetitive. of course there are variables. but ultimately, interest of something wears off proportionate to time. i guess it applies to people as well. i'm not saying thats a good thing... hopefully i get back into touch. as i said, variables, that is what keeps boredom away.
going out there, feeling alive. to fight against gravity, to slightly defy the laws of physics... pushing all mental boundaries, to alter your mind to believe further then just what seems. sometimes when you achieve something you've been eyeing for... it reminds you the essence of how things work - hardwork equates success. it is conspicuous that my lifestyle isn't the sort an average joe would settle in, neither is my style of blogging, but everything is sailing just fine.
seeing others in relationship and the things they do, sometimes if things just works out it can be an incredibly good thing. if there are less restriction and more freedom, less expectations and more open, and less secret messages and more understanding on both sides. sometimes your minds a mess, in a dilemma, wondering what to do... i guess it takes time to settle it all. its always better to get into business with a sorted mind.
prelims oh prelims. i admit i've been abit exhausted in the studying sense as i've taken more time out for activities to relieve stress on. i wouldn't say im struggling badly, but i have no been doing any revision, despite prelims in like 10 days. olevel orals, too. shucks, i need to start studying. and i vow to myself, to go on full swing after prelims, i swear im going to work hard. cut down on training time, slacking time, playing time - alot. o's aint a game... and you only got one chance. a final chance.
will things ever work out as planned.
seems like wishes and hopes are merely that - wishes and hopes.