Monday, September 07, 2009
im blogging so much more and the wrong time.
blogging spree?
yeah yeah emo, as usual.
do i really seem to be landing myself into troubles? somehow the countless of quarrels that happened between me and another seemed to be instigated by me. and its all rather lame and trivial. or at least i think it is. maybe its due to me not knowing my limits when im joking around, or just doing it at the wrong time. as i've said the other time, its handicapping to a person when he's not aware of his doings. some mistakes are irreversible, even though humans err. that's the harsh essence of life anyway...
sad to know that its always you and you doing the initiating. while the other party waits, does his/her obligations, and then move on with his/her plans. is it really your 'duty'? or are you just too boring for people to be with. always the one to start. exceptions are always about homeworks and studies (alright its better then nothing). once regarded as a good friend but i guess as time past, the feeling of it wears off quick. people change, good or the bad we don't know. that's the harsh essence of life anyway...
you are taking things too seriously. once you are overly conscious of yourself and your every action, you start to feel less natural, hence making it worse off then the start. why bother so much about things, and its always your thoughts that you yourself make, letting it to be the better of you. apathy, remember, its sometimes better. instead of lamely making things harder for you. relax, the tension is unneeded. but all things comes with a price. that's the harsh essence of life anyway...
fuck it man, its time you drop all burdens and forget all things, then focus on what's ahead with a clearer head.
awareness,
apathy,
spontaniety.
then you'll achieve.