weeks after weeks, i thought i could have this finally solved.
but i just can't.

left it hanging, and hanging, and hanging. not replied, hints here and there, but nothing kept solid.

whats worse is when people said HONESTLY, they reply back PITIFULLY.
taken advantaged but foolishly falling back.
time cannot heal ALL wounds.
too bad, some mistakes are just irreversible.
seriously, irreversible, no matter what - whether you are in the correct state of mind or not.

but im starting to think, why am i trying to withstand all these bad weathers. few dreams, couples of sleepless night, unrest mind. how unsettling, the capabilities of ... to be able to unwind a person. so what about different genders/person/mood. seriously not a good enough excuse. its never fun to be the reason of one's anger. especially when you know there's no reason for it. hah.

questions remains.
fuck it man, if things just can't be settled, then end it for once please. no need to put up a different face, just to put the person in further agony, for what purposes i don't know. too bad i made a wrong STEP, then a wrong MOVE, now believing that i did the wrong CHOICE. can't understand why did i lead myself into such a tormenting state. 'foolish', one word that could never be any more fitting. forget it.
JUST FORGET IT.

if it soothes your heart even better...
thank you soooo much.

cp-kia.
he is a kid.
who jumps around.
need i say more?

i know, no need tell me.
i like it dull and plain.
and eh, this is my blog,
so i reserve the rights
to rant about whatever
i want, thank you.

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