Sunday, November 22, 2009
train? or work?
in my already shortened holiday its hard to figure out the answer to my dilemma. i can't figure what's more important - to enjoy your youth to the fullest (because you're gonna end up working like hell in your adulthood, you have so little time left, not to mention you'll have 180 turn in your form), or make the most out of your time (gaining experience in the working field, earlier the better, and you also need money anyway). it is also so hard to find a job now that its holidays.
argh, thanks to dpa, applied for it unknowing that there'd be a 8 week preparatory program. too bad i can't escape from it, but i sure do hope i meet good friends. totally new faces, gonna be hard to build up rapport from scratch, but die die you have to.
now that i got a bike, list left is one or two clothes, jeans and pants. shoes too, nike darts as soon as this shoes totally wears off, and probably a cheap casual shoe too. the rest goes in the travel funds. and repairing the computer. sadly, human wants are neverending. but this should last me awhile, if not for long. i should cut down on transportation and meals outside to lessen fares. save save save cheapskate ftw. the fact that i need money is also the fact i need a job. but how? time consumer and super difficult to get a job.
its hard to miss the fact that's going on in my mind now - i'm hating too much recently. i don't think i can place the blame on others; people are going overboard nowadays and its not about me getting temper issues. dont know why but its been flaring up in me recently, i should just take things as it is, lightly. for what make enemies, for what hate, for what screw things up for nothing. don't be a piss to others and they will be the same to you... hopefully.
hais forever thinking and thinking. honesty might be the best policy, but you gonna learn when to break the rules. know when to lie, learn how to lie, but be sure you don't go over the limits of dishonesty. although the solemnness of this blog depicts a rather 'been-through-a-lot' author, i'm fast to admit that i've still nowhere near the stage where i can say i know all about life.
much more to learn...