Thursday, December 31, 2009
gonna try to keep it short and sweet... try.
gotta be quite a breakthrough year, honestly, in terms of socialising and stuffs, but i dont like to rattle on about this issue. simply put, finally spoke up, finally broke the ice between classmates, toughen up and created new friendships. its not all about pk pk and just pk this year, finally get to hang out with people. confidence grew, no longer so hard to keep up conversations with friends, and maybe, just maybe, i think i can say i got true friends.
school isn't much of a bore to me now, in fact i quite miss it. secondary school and studyings... not that bad actually. not like last year where everything's was a havoc and the only thing i look forward to is the school bell so i can finally go train. that's right, with mdm noreha as our english teacher, with a better connection with your classmates, and without the mindset of 'what's the point of making friends'. now, remembering the times where i stayed back after school to chiong papers. i never say phua hor.
this year i let out my 'secret' and decided to not care about what others think of me doing climbing walls and jumping off stuffs. yaya, spiderman, whatever, but you know its not that bad... "you mean this year only?"
got to tell her all the things that i've kept inside of myself for so long... hey its really not that bad... maybe things don't live it up to its expectation. but, its ok. really. thanks for the adventure. huh brett what?
really stupid things that i've did. fell on my face, pure ownage lache gainer faceplant. went out one on one just to screw things up, like completely. minds having retarded thoughts. recklessness in decisions... pure over-analysis. extreme stupidity. getting so messed up over small issues. but i don't regret. hopefully i learn, and grow. sometimes your mind and your body isn't in sync, and you fell off course, veering into the 'anyhow just whack' state of mind. ended up screwed. awareness.... fucking need awareness. oh and apathy.
and need i mention, liverpool suck this year. but once a fan always a fan. they won against aston villa.. probably good to end the year winning. haha.
didn't really progress so much this year, but glad to see the relations between training mates grow, somewhat. love to see how much the community have grew, and became to be. i feel less angrier with my trainings, of course, there can be so much improvements, but one step at a time.
my mind's not that strong to remember all things happening this year, but...
- got through dpa. not much of an achievement actually, but still one of the things i did this year. i got to a course that i wanted.
- got about 50 wishes this birthday. some birthday gifts as well! never gotten those in the past 15 years. even if its on the o's, quite truthfully the best birthday ever, no wait, on par with the 15th birthday jam.
- overcame the hurdle that is the o levels. i'm so fucking gonna ace it. PLEASE!
- matured abit more, wisen up a little. i hope.
- made ALOT more friends..
- got a bloody bicycle.
- gained six-fucking-hundred subscribers. (yaya action lah action lah)
- albeit unable to hit the 2x bw goal that i was eyeing for, i got 100kg squats, which is an achievement by itself.
- indeed gotten myself much new flips this year, although i'm far from being good at it, i'm progressing forward. thats all that matters.
- and blah blah.
so, its not that bad of a life that i'm living, am i right?
yes i'm right handed.
seriously, there's nothing in this year that i wish i could change. nothing. everything happened in the direction that i can't fully avoid, the path was laid down for me to walk... of course the several hardships and bitter times were unfavorable, but in the end i'm right here. there's nothing that i want to change. i'm happy with how and where i am now. yes i am. OK maybe i want castle to be back to where it was.
thanks everyone for making things happen. hopefully i can stay in contact with all my friends this year but as life goes on... things move forwards.. there'll be newer things ahead. but really 4e5 and a.m.a and friends, don't lose contact with me. please. i love you all, fuck yes i really do. p.s dont take things too literally.
2009 is such a fast year. so fast.
ok now new years fucking resolution:
lower the expectation level and live life the way it should be lived.
spread the love and lessen the hate. acceptance. ai zai.
and to further improve myself as an individual, physically and mentally.
just 3 things. simple and sweet. harhar. you know, simplicity is happiness.
poly will be a whole new world, i'm hoping for the best, i know, its not gonna be all that bad...
twenty-ten, here i come. bitches.
and before i go, TAKE THIS!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jPS9nb1Xhkw&feature=sub
video for the year end.
have a great 2010!