Sunday, January 31, 2010
lol 100th post. like finally.
start of 2010, 2nd jan - epic buangkok sdc2p bail.. bruised and cut the top of my knee.
end of jan 2010, 31th jan - unfocused stride to slip to shinbonesnap.. stupidity caused deep shin cut.
fail or what? injuries are nothing to me, mistakes are repeatedly committed, nothing ever really alerted me. i'm still not on my 100% focus mode, and it seems like no matter what happens i can't be fully focused. on such a SIMPLE movement i spent 80 bucks. first experience? luckily i wasn't fatal. so many bails yet none of them made me more aware of myself. so much for the 'all talk no action' mentioning of 'STAY FOCUSED' on many of my blogposts, and that includes my new year's resolution post. i seriously must wake up... seriously. no more bails please.
today's the last day of children fare of bus concession, so i decided jelapang is a good destination, albeit the long distance and irritating traveling time. only at the first spot and i ended up bailing not even 20minutes into the training. blood keeps dripping and wasting so much people's time and money... fail tmr start adult fare liao. keep on wasting money. money money money. fuck that shit. i seriously want to start working, i need to make up for all the lame money i spent rather mindlessly, 3k goal looks impossible to get unless i get a job asap. 5 weeks break is chiong work for money.
oh and did i mention, the stiching room is HORRIBLY cold, like probably 10 degrees in there, and the pain is excruciating, what numbness the doctors ensured, doesn't work at all! however i probably can start squatting on wednesday or something, 2 days break and slowly get back into training... SLOWLY
incredibly packed with next week, with group assignments and quizzes due to completion and boring field trips, can you imagine its like only the 3rd week? so i'm kinda like training 3 days in a row... quite intensively somemore. just need to make full use of the free days i have left. yeah, and then i bailed. owned sia. btw, weekends were supposed to be used for group assignments but i managed to push it to the weekdays. lol, i'm just one that can't be bothered. i'm lazy to go to school tmr and i got a bloody mc. but i can't, got fucking projects that i can't skip. don't understand why people will look forward to poly at all.
sidetracking,
the thought of travelling to other countries sounds fun, one of my goals is to travel around the world and widen my vision that is now only limited to singapore... pfft. i might dislike malaysia because i had the impression of it being lowclass and boring, but thinking about food and cheap stuffs over there, a&w + ramli + genting rides, i seriously wanna head out there to see what's it like. however the questions of security still raises several worries. racist issues... random thefts... and in other countries, random people having guns all that. suddenly feeling the luxury of singapore, i guess just everything got its ups and downs. the educational system here still sucks, but crime rates are rather low.
richie, tutu, and royce were great to accompany me, especially royce coming all the way from his area to my area... just make me a guilty friend that doesn't treat anyone nicely. i can't recall a single great deed i did to any of my friends, guess i'm totally unappreciative and nonreciprocal and that is something that sucks to have in a friend. i want to be a better person, but to start, i must be a better friend. tone down the bastardry, heighten the niceness. hais. such a bad prospect to be in. and i can still remember pangseh-ing max just to be able to get home without missing my last buses...
and in school, seriously, i know its abit still too early but... i feel that its kinda like making friends for no reason. just make for the sake of making. talk for the sake of making things less quiet/awkward. meeting for the sake of formality. its just a whole different vibe altogether. but seriously i've yet to see any really potential friends and frankly i've some people that i just can't see eye to eye recently. reasons not sure, just the 'vibe' again i guess. seriously 2 weeks+ nia and i'm already having all this impressions, hopefully i drop the grudges and things starts to improve..
snsd's new song oh! is fucking ownage, cute girls acting cute = super cute... and they continue owning. the song is catchy as well. adds to the list of catchy korean songs. haha. some good additions to my hp to keep me varied in music to keep abit of the boredom cells away on boring train/bus rides. i want a new headphone... when i get a bloody job lah.
random shit...
so far i only know 2 friends heading to np. like wtf right. so little people joining me in the new school. craving for fast food nowadays = fat + money. 2 shortfilms i watched gave me inspiration to make of my own, but i'm gonna start with cp in motion 2 first. need to spend some of my free time to start messing with the editing and stuffs. and every thursday, i get to meet up with friends and eat dinner and talk cock all the way till 10+, and the feeling is fucking awesome, beats the hell out of school.
lazy to keep writing. since i wrote so long already. ha