Sunday, February 14, 2010
yay cny is here. like finally.
don't know why but my mood for cny is really high this year, with my family spending the most, 600 on clothes yesterday, and me myself hitting 400bucks overall. money, damn money, i want a bloody job. maybe its because i've learnt how to play mahjong, so i look forward to my first mahjong session during the cny. maybe its been a long time since i've gambled so i hope to earn some money just gambling, once in a year is fine. maybe its due to the stress of poly life so this timely break is well-deserved. maybe i got someone to talk to now so relatives are not as boring anymore.
i kinda feel that my squats are back, but i need to really maintain it, i'm going into a routine come the 5 weeks break after bintan, and i must strengthen my form. i'm gonna go back on monday so i requires much determination, forcing your body to train even on a cny day. but really no choice. i also have quizzes and assignment to complete the following week, and its boring like hell. also 5 week's break is for me start filming, editing, and training. and get a job too.
oh so much talk about cny, but i've forgotten about valentines. many people complaining about being single and lonely, thus concluding valentines to be sucky. like who bloody cares. haha get ang pao and stfu lah.
gosh i can't believe i broke my headphones. thank god i won the contest with richie, hopefully i get a good replacement soon. but it bothers me to think that dropping my phone like countless times made the music quality fail abit. i want a bloody iphone. such a good tool to use in school.
this week's really good because wed i had loads of fun celebrating shaomin's birthday. finally after 1 month we get to hang out again. i don't know why but many people said my hairstyle changed alot. changed of style in general. but as long as its for the better, then its good lah. my bowling skills abit fail but pool is bloody fun, i should start trying out pool more, especially in long breaks. bukit timah plaza just some 15mins walk away. people come and go, people changed... but as long as contact is kept, things should be fine.
i felt less awkward on thurs and fri, being included, less stress and more fun. i was having a good day on thurs, being able to squat 80kg x3x5 well, and gossiping about the fun stuffs of life. friday was the field trip to ura and red dot, and it was fun going out with fms dpa, slowly starting to like everyone. but i really hope that we get more lunch outing with peace. its breaking contact. not good.
you know, when they say ignorance is bliss, i think about how true that is. like hell. if i wasn't so conscious about casual conversations, i wouldn't complicate simple things. the more we think of something to be true, it ends up being true because of you making it so. self fulfilling prophecy in action. i don't want to be ass and say everyone's boring, because what makes me think that i talk about the most interesting thing, and create so much humour that others so evidently fail to do so. maybe there's inevitable judgments and impressions we create, but never make it a definite. its still like one month into this, let's take things slowly, adaptation takes time. open-mindedness would be greatly appreciated, and i should stop holding false assumptions so hardly. damn it for being jy-ish. even if over consciousness isn't a good thing, awareness is still needed at all times.
and its too early to say anything, even though there's sparks igniting already.
if a person values happiness as simplicity, life wouldn't be so much of a hassle anymore.
happy chinese new year everybody.