Wednesday, March 17, 2010
ever since i got a bicycle, cycling has been topsy turvy. sure its fun, being able to cut some transportation cost and time to destinations nearby, maybe even a simple awesome way to exercise. but there's downsides as well. having spent about $140 on the bike back to nov 2009, thanks to poor care and management (ironically, because at the beginning i was so concerned about not spoiling my bike), my bike seems like some 5-year-old garbage bike you see around the first floor of hdb estates. and that pisses me off. i've been spending quite some amount on repairing of the bike's brake/gear/tyre and the condition of the bike is still quite bad. i get tired really easily and i dont think my speed is quick. even though its a calorie burner, i hate to always get exhausted so much before gym sessions, or sweat so much to reach somewhere near.
and just today, frustrations of having a bike piled on top of each other, but i live to tell the tale right now. true enough, as much as parents love to complain, they do make a bit of sense, about me not being careful enough. aiyah, i really need to heighten my sense of awareness, be it mentally or physically, in movements or real life. sometimes life's a blur to me, and i can't make full sense of what i'm doing.
despite the complaints, i had fun ytd though, being able to find my way to ecp from simei, just following the park connector all the way. and damn, that was a long ride, 40minutes from ecp's lagoon back here, definitely an achievement for me. 30km+ of travelling distance, i guess that was quite an assercise. shockingly i don't feel much aches today, despite the fact i didn't sleep well.
on my macbook now, something that's new in my life, and much of my coursemates i believe. finally have a new laptop. kinda irritating needing to wait for my cousin's mobile broadband thumbdrive thingy, have to share with my sis, who likes to make noise all the time. i can't wait to install bootcamp, but first i need to meet up with ah kau, who knows it all in this field. im quite used to the interface already, still pissed there's no ctrl c/v button, home and end button, but the multi-touch mouse sensor is quite an awesome thing to use. and lol, apple really knows how to act original with their interface. i still don't know why my mum chose to pay installments, it costs about 3k in all, but hopefully its worth the price. can't wait to start using windows 7 on this and edit videos all the time.
oh and dont believe my msn's pm, i was just yearning to have a personal laptop to do all my editings on it. mac doesnt have vegas, since they are stupid. somehow the internet and msn does enough to keep me happy, since i don't play much games anyway.
speaking about videos, i've made one new video, just released today. kinda finished it quickly, wasn't a very good video imo, but yeah, managed to clear up the archives with richie today, who tonned at my house. cp in motion was well-received by my poly friends, although i didnt think the huge outburst was really necessary, but things like this cannot be helped so i shouldn't keep the wrong mindset about hiding my 'true self' now. i promise a better video, cp in motion 2. but that will take some time.
i have people to thank for keeping me occupied with things instead of me dwelling over petty issues for the past few days. im putting in effort to shift my focus away from it and once things are settled i'll try to get back to previous state of our relationship. its regretful, telling her my true feelings, but aiyah, what's done cannot be undone. cliche, but true. admittedly, the little things she does/posts still kinda affects me. and the fact many people have found their other half really makes me green with envy. nehmind, i'm trying to brighten my light bulb, it has been really dim these days.
mahjong tmr at ah gwee house. its gonna be fun. poly friends are awesome. let me reiterate, i really didnt think i can click with my class, but it turns out that my classmates are quite a lovely bunch. i remembered felix's birthday party, how awesome the people are, playing wii, chatting, playing mahjong. i think the ba people are cool too. haha, fun stuffs. its awesome good to make new friends, knowing that within the 100 people, about 5+/- of them can be really good friends for life. orientation camp group finally got a meet up, i'm so looking forward. really.
i haven't been catching up with my pk/sec sch friends and its about time i do so. there isn't any more of a better time to meet up with them during this 5 weeks break. i kept the promise to myself to not lose any contact with them, and thus i should make the effort to interact with them soon. i don't wanna be labelled as some pangsehkia, make new friends forget old ones. but damn, i do feel abit distant from a couple of people i once considered close. like mr zahid. its enviable how certain classmates manage to keep a really close relationship with their friends all the while, and me, i still ponder about whether do i have true friends.
again, holidays, time to get a job. i'm surprised how many of my friends are working already. but i have to thank ashton for giving me slots for jobs that pays me enough to not feel guilty of spending more than saving/earning. a.m.a showreel is something that i want to work on, but i just don't have the clips and everything to make one solid video. im so lazy to find a job no matter how much i want to work, but then hais, time isn't exactly on my hand either. trips to msia/indonesia to come, and i hope i have fun. what's more, there's still a personal commitment to work on, that is to start filming for my new video, and of course, to train up more.
life has been colourful, not exactly all positive, but yeah, things are sailing just fine.