Monday, March 15, 2010
maybe...
maybe i can't really figure out how close a relationship between two parties can be to fulfill the criteria of being couples. so what if we talk all the time... so what if we have couple of similarities... so what if we click quite well. that doesn't mean its 'love'.
maybe from all the nonverbal signals, i felt that there might just be abit of liking from the other side and i took it positively. all the touch and all the interactivity surely must tell you something, but the misinterpretation of it turns out to be horrid. its just the way she does things, and her inclination to touch.
maybe i was through impulse, yet again. your mind's playing all the mind tricks on you yet you fall for it, because remember, the way you think of things may not reflect actuality. you didn't take a step back and truly have a grasp of the scenario. what's the bigger picture? so many uncertainties but yet you rush, despite you knowing the mere time-frame of knowing each other.
maybe im just too childish to undertake such matters.
thats like the 3rd time shit like this happened to me. back to the same old saying about myself - i don't fucking learn from mistakes. i wonder when i would fully mature and stop being so dumb. and try to act like i'm that kind of wise guy. fuck all these man, time should fix this. apathy should fix this. learning from this experience (again) should fix this. i really wish to put a stop to all these, but somehow... somehow... i just like to put myself in deep shit over and over again.
forget it lah.