Friday, March 12, 2010
damn man, i never felt so strong an emotion before....
my attempt on a love letter:
"i don't know but this has been bothering me form quite some time already and i doubt i can put up with all these pretense any longer. it's obvious, i fell in love with you. there's no real reason why, but i figured if someone made such a difference and caused such an impact to your life despite the mere length of knowing each other, she's definitely someone you will want to keep in your life forever. my mind is always preoccupied with you. and i lost count the number of times i turn around trying to spot you in the room. but hearing her talking about the someone she loves, and how she puts you second priority only demoralises you. demoralises you so badly. as they say, the worst thing in life is seeing someone you love, love someone else. why all these emotions? ever since that hug, i started to fall deeper into this love trap. i poured out all emotions into that one post-it note, risking myself to look like a loser in front of everyone else. although you post-it was reassuring, it was of ill-effect knowing that you wouldn't meet yesterday. each time i see you sitting with your friends, i have so little courage to approach you because i'm conscious of myself whenever i'm with people i don't know. i guess everyone has their own priorities, and i'm evidently not topping yours. i might be a pessimist but it is better to live in reality than in delusions.
however, whatever the case is, i just want you to know one thing: i love you terribly."
emo core right? but serious. i wrote this @ bintan, in my crib. i think it's awesome to lie on the bed, listening to music, then type all your thoughts out into your phone.