Thursday, April 28, 2016
Day 69:
This week is alright-ish. Good and bad. Bittersweet. Ambivalent.
So I didn't get the job at Bounce...
Despite working at a trampoline park before.
Despite having 9 years of Parkour experience.
Despite Bounce Singapore opening up and the opportunities I can work with.
Despite lacking Parkour practitioners in the park.
Despite video-making experience.
Despite my more than decent resume.
Despite the student visa/being a foreigner thing not being one of the deciding factors.
Despite showing my keenness and a having had a pre-interview.
Despite following this job for so long and wanting the job and waiting for an opening to come.
Despite this being the closest type of job I could possibly apply and stand a good chance for seeing that I have no prior experience in cafe/restaurants.
Sometimes you look past several other factors thinking that you confidently got it all. Yeah obviously I'm disappointed. But then again, I wouldn't say I fully deserve it seeing how the rest have undoubtedly done much better than me in the interview. People tell me it is their loss. However, I feel like I am at the losing end because I'm the one who's penniless at the moment and I'm the one who wishes to work and train hard at Trampoline Park. I had such high expectations of Bounce... however I guess it's not meant to be. And I'll have to try much harder if I want the job in Singapore or even Thailand.
It's so difficult sometimes the things life throws at you. It's hard to take and absorb the fact that all the glamour amounts to nothing when you're just as good as your weakest link. So what if I hit millions of views and have a big following, you're still not good enough for getting a job here. But then again, it's a rude awakening to reality and it does bring to light the things I have to work on, especially how it will possibly affect many other jobs in the future. I'm already 23, I should really know better... Wish I can do better... Maybe it's time I do better, from now on.
To add insult to injury, Red Robyn told me right after receiving the disappointing Bounce email that my job trial will have to postpone for a week later or so... playing the waiting game again...
Also, found out the Velocity is having their 4th Urban Attack, and getting first place would mean wining a grand prize of $1.5k cash. Got reminded about how much I wanna get better in obstacle coursing. Really kinda wanna head back to do this, however it seems unlikely that I do it, it's spans over 3 weeks+ and I might not even win it. But yeah, makes me realize how much stuff I'm missing out on because I'm in Melbourne now. VUA, Bounce SG Promo, Street Fest even. So much for finding opportunities elsewhere. Grass is indeed always greener on the other side.
HOWEVER,
A good news would be the fact that I at least landed a job out of the 3 that I could possibly get this week, and it's none other than the trusty Deliveroo one. Pretty happy with that and really stoked to start working my full 20 hours, have to fill out them unproductive nights with all them shifts! Admittedly, I'm a bit lazy to start working, however - I think had a long enough break and it's time to get my ass moving and make myself a livin'. I start tomorrow night! My quads are gonna get so much working out everyday!
Got to know my final year project groupmates and I'm working with a director that shares a very similar style to me. Having a pretty suitable script, I am finally more motivated to do some actual researching and planning for upcoming shoot. Finally doing something to make that 25-grand worth of a Bachelor degree pay off.
Also, got on the right track in starting and finishing assignments, however procrastination is definitely happening... it's such a bad habit of mine. Also gotta start actually watching the movies I downloaded/borrowed from the library... Damn it.
There was definite frisbee progress this week, had the funnest game since the longest time!
Did a bit of cooking today after so long. Marinated and fried a chicken for the first time by myself!
I finally got about doing the big running pre in Camberwell that I've been walking past for ages. So happy that I got it down pretty easily. Gotta go back there and get another shot.
House warming in 2 days! Gonna be hectic!