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Sunday, May 08, 2016

Day 79:
First week of having a job. I should be happier... But I don't know why I feel so unaccomplished and jaded from the state of things in my life now.

I guess I prefer the people back home where everything's so comfortable and we can chat and connect in a much deeper level... Despite having the universal language as my first language, it's crazy how much difference exists - it's so much of a difference communicating with someone from overseas compared to someone back home. I definitely don't feel too good vibes from the people I know here as much as back home/other cities I've been to, so I don't quite know what to feel. Oh well. As long as I'm happy with my own business I guess~

Did a good couple of hours this week of cycling around collecting and delivering food, decent money rolling in and I no longer have schedule-less nights during the weekdays. What's more, job is almost zero pressure, get paid even if there's no orders, so sometimes I get to train as well. I get tips every now and then which can really help boosting my overall earnings. Cycling isn't all that tiring, except for maybe the cycle back especially from the further zones... Other than that, I can't complain too much (maybe during winter I'll die tho...). Glad I got this!

That being said, while it's good to be earning money in exchange of 20hrs a week... And with assignments piling up as we approach the end of the semester... Now I no longer have much time to do the stuff that I came here to do... i.e training, making videos, travelling, learning. Going back to the mindless cycle, with additional pressure to make money every week to pay off rent. It's definitely tough. But busy is good. Busy is better than doing nothing.

This week I finally did some decent night training as well, doing more techy challenges and feeling more inclined to get back into achieving big goals in Melbourne. But I also have a lot of bad landings altho I don't get injured, I should be more wary about hurting my joints long-term. And I have to work on landing jumps on my first try instead of my tenth try... All this training definitely takes a toll on my body, that's why I felt completely wrecked last night and I couldn't go to the gym today... Lol.

115kg 5x5 done! 120kg 3x5 is the goal tomorrow. Then 125 x 5...

Also ran out of the greens last night. Should start taking a long break. Won't buy them till June. Have to stick to this hard.

I haven't been cooking much and despite wanting to learn, I've been slacking too much. I'm gonna make my sweet and sour fish and pumpkin croquette tonight!

As of this point I'm focusing on making as much money as I can and so that I can head back home to enjoy 2 weeks of a legit break before continuing working even more during my 2nd half of Melbourne where I should be be fully settled down and stuff. Next year I can then travel the world without worries.