Tuesday, October 18, 2016
Day 244:
It's been a while... I stopped blogging on the regular as I'm 'too busy' now. Air quotes because I'm supposedly busy but the free time I have isn't quite put into proper use. Definitely biggest problem I'm facing right now. Procrastination. Pretty much same story as poly days.
Okay lemme backtrack.
Brisbane NatGat! It was quite possibly the biggest thing I looked forward to after a longgg September. It was work/family/school... Then finally a break! It was dope for sure. Finally a taste of sunshine in the Sunshine State. To be honest, I wasn't feeling the greatest, but I still did tons of training in the 5 days I was there, compared to like one or two of proper jumps in Melbourne. I did kinda fucked my ankle up on the first day, then second day I trained really hard despite shitty callouses (which, until now, isn't quite healed yet...), then got so sore on the third day, that I bailed doing a simple jump because I was sore. Which was kinda disappointing... Still yet to do some of the challenges I planned on doing, but truthfully I'm not sure when I'll ever be heading back there again... Sometimes you wished you just man up and committed, but your body/the weather/-insertexcusehere- isn't quite on your side... #theresalwaysnexttime Vs #therewontbeanexttime mindset.
Anyways, meeting the Australian gang again, it's always such a pleasure. After so many days of shoots during September, this break was well-timed but hey, straight back into the grind upon touching down. Reality is that earning money is and always will be a huge priority...
I'm happy I kinda stuck to my Sinless September challenge, although I gave in after 30 days. It's good that I did have the self control to say no and put it away for 30 days, and truth be told, at certain points, it was tough. No doubt I was giving in to the craving after 30 days, but getting back to it, I'm not sure I really did miss it. I'm starting to enjoy it less. It really isn't so much of a point to get high whenever you want to. Sounds ironic saying this as I'm doing it on the regular again. I'm sure we all are well aware that too much of anything is never great, even if you understand Which is bad especially when I have datelines due and a better diet that I want to stick to. The quick gratification you get giving in to a craving it's shortlived and serves not much purpose. Gotta sort my life out.
Also, good news that my place in this year's China Red Bull International Freerunning Comp is confirmed and I'll be up against 19 other sick talents around the world this 27th Nov. I'm still kinda awestruck, and I know that my skill level is nowhere near all the other competitors especially when my training frequency has been affected for the longest time (since poly days/NS/now uni and work), the rest of the competitors in the list are full-time athletes. I've been doing it so wrong. It's a bit too late for that realization but the present moment is what matters. When school's out, November will be training month to get myself back on track! Not too concerned about competition performance, but more of gaining experience, learning and meeting others, being safe and of course, free travel/hotel stay in Beijing, also not forgetting I'm going to be playing on a set-up that I designed! Definitely so keen for this! 😃
Work has been monotonous lately, although I did manage to earn a record $250 last Tuesday with the combination of Deliveroo and UberEats. To be honest, the hustle can be real if you own a scooter. I found the perfect hack that, if on a perfectly busy day coupled with the fact that fatigue and speed won't be an issue, $300/day is possible just being a food courier. Only in Australia though. Not sure how I'm going to take the change in currency/minimum wages when I head back home. Still have to find ways to hustle once I head back/before heading for my travels next year.
As stated earlier, I'm facing severe procrastination in terms of school work, due to a couple of reasons - I'm not quite motivated enough to do well, I'm focused on working and earning money, distracted really easily for no reason, actually am just clueless on how to do my visual effects project properly, my heart is elsewhere, etc. The last week of semester is next week and then it's just one more week for submission deadlines, which would mean no more school in forever. Over. Degree secured. True life starts for real, 2017. No more school or NS shit in the way. Living the #singaporeanlife where life goals can only be achieved once you finish the horribly long path of education and national slavery before you're no longer bounded by strings. What am I saying. I soon enough have to figure out what to do to get a somewhat stable income as I become more and more of an 'adult'. Oh well. I'm just looking forward to the end of it all...
This Thursday would be my first ever court-hearing and it will be the end of all the worries once the verdict is stated. Quite funny how this is actually a thing that I'll be facing in my Melbourne life. Never quite expected it. Pretty sure it will turn out alright. Insane how much phone calls and actual typing is done for this totally unnecessary issue, if only I just paid that $3.90. Story of my life isn't it. Looking forward to just get it over and done with, be cleared of all my fines, pay all my dues (which includes forking out to the budget of the two projects I'm involved in), rent for the month of October (insane when I think by the end of a year here, I would've spent about $10k just on rent, and all of it are my earnings). November is the month where I start fresh, no more debts, no more school to tie me down, hopefully much sunnier weather, which will mean more training, and of course more hustling. Time to hit that $10,000 goal to bring back home...
Then again, I'm not sure if I just want to spend the remaining months of my visa just working and working. Do I want to be away for that long? Should I go back earlier? Don't I want to spend more time with my girlfriend and family? But, will I be able to fund my travels? If I go back earlier, will I be able to earn as much or enough, or will I be able to afford not having any income for months? But didn't you say you want to head back to Singapore to work on all your training goals/video ideas? I'm not sure... I hope that I can earn enough in the next few months quicker so that I can head home earlier to spend more time back home without worrying about the lack of money or time going into waste... Oh the dilemmas of life. Tough tough tough.
Maybe I should not care too much and take things as it comes, and focus on enjoying the present life. November, please be here quick!
PS: Birthday is in 8 days! Hosting a house party on the 29th just in time with Halloween as well. At least that's something to look forward to?