Wednesday, December 28, 2016
Day 316:
The end of 2016 also signifies the closing in on the chapter of my Camberwell life. I'm one hundred percent going to be missing this place - how it started from totally unfurnished house to something of comfort, all the experimental cooking which somehow turned out pretty alright, the tricking sessions in the huge field right outside my backyard... It's bittersweet, but I feel that it's good while it lasted and it's time to go.
It's crazy to think how much money I've spent on rent and bills and furnitures, in this 10 months alone it has costed me very close to $10,000. Having a defecit that I have to try to break even every month was a new thing for me. That's the adult life which everyone else in the world is living! Really can't imagine that doing it full-time for the rest of my life.
I'm excited to move to a new location (Fitzroy) and explore the suburbs for a little bit. I won't be working too much but will still need to try to earn a little bit of extra income here and there with the sweet minimum wage Australia has to offer. I probably could hit my target of $14,000 after selling furniture (which is the toughest thing to do right now, effort...) and getting back deposits, but judging by the fact that I won't be having a constant income or an income at all next year, every extra penny counts.
So being technically jobless (shiftless) and homeless, January will be all about travel travel travel. That's what I hope at Ieast. I've been doing a lot of flight tickets checking and it's kinda stressful trying to make the right decision. Money (again) is quite the biggest concern of being freely able to just shut up, book them tickets, and yolo the whole way through. In the back of my mind I know that despite the price, it'll still be worth it. Sadly though, I want to still be smart about it.
I also bought a new Canon 17-40mm lens to replace my shitty distorty Samyang 14mm - well, not new, 4 years old, but it's $500. It's always such a sketchy decision to make on the spot while inspecting the lens. You just have to pray you didn't get scam for a 2nd hand item. Hoping to sell the 14mm lowest $300, so it'll just be a $200 upgrade. Want to also replace the bulky 24-70mm Tamron with a 50mm prime, hopefully getting back some money in returns. Other things I'm looking out for is a good all round mic, a old school film camera (for dem experimentals), possibly a cheap-ish gimbal too.
Another thing holding me back is wrist injury. I'm so gutted about that Southbank and Parliament double bail which fucked my wrist up really badly, and also the bruised hamstring which is currently not really affecting me, but knowing that it is still there really irks me. The wrist one tho, it has been 3.5 weeks and it has not gone away. It's a really long time to be injured judging how quickly my body usually takes to recover. Just when I thought it's about time to get back to hardcore training. Can't do any catpasses which annoys me so much.
That being said, injuries are the one thing I really want to avoid next year. It has been on my list for the longest time since I first started training, and each time I get severely injured I feel this way. I need to be really careful as it will affect SO MUCH and being able to move without any pain and restriction is seriously the best gift I can ever ask for. Can't believe like a silly incident 3.5 weeks ago has landed me in this pile of shit, affecting me to not be able to achieve some of my goals in Camberwell, leaving me very unsatisfied.
Speaking about goals, I face the problem of putting them on hold for far too long - usually it's fair enough to say I still have time, but evidently I don't - 10 months later I'm still saying the same thing, and before I know it, time won't be on my side. It's also annoying as I need a friend to come along to help with the filming - which is also a huge factor in achieving my goals because to be fair no one will actually care about your goals. With my current injuries, seems like my Camberwell/Hawthorn goals will need to be put on hold but I really need to come back and get them before I leave, especially those dive rolls I've been eyeing since forever...
At least I've succeeded in one of the other big goal in my Melbourne life - the coveted 3 plates squat. I even was able to one up it by adding 5kg on top of the 140kg goal. Jumps seems to already have increased but I really need to up my training frequency, more plyos and standing jumps to transfer my new-found strength into power. Time to keep my bodyweight in check too and focus on that one arm pull up goal next.
My long distance relationship also reached the half-year mark which I'm pretty glad. But honestly not everything is hunky dory like it would seem. It definitely has affected my mood as of late. I wish I had better control of things and don't have to deal with distance because, no shit, time apart from each other undoubtedly affects closeness. I just have to do what I feel is right, and trust that things will go well on the other side. Also, my flight home is booked, pretty excited to head back, have a lot in store but really hope that I stay motivated and can find a group of friends that can push me to become a better me.
I feel that this year has been a generally negative one, there are so many things I'm unhappy about, a lot of my weaknesses became clear to me which made me feel the lousiest in a long while, faced so much bad stuff which easily outweigh the good, and I had very little days that meant anything. This whole overseas experience has been a rollercoaster, even till now I feel I should've had thought this through better. I guess we all have ups and downs in life and you just gotta push on despite the circumstances - which I clearly did. But I'm en route to try and make 2017 a much much more fruitful and memorable one.