The pains of living in this country are still very evident. Faced the ridiculousness of police cases yet again. Possibilities of getting permits for LCG seems incredibly slim still. 

Having spent so much money in the first week of being back (on cabs, on servicing my bike/camera, on massages, on bike lessons, etc.) have introduced me back into the pressure of money-making again. Had a desperate day out getting myself the comfortable jobs I had in Australia only to find out that it was clearly a stupid idea as the pay is incredibly low and the whole idea of food deliveries in Singapore just doesn't pan out. Trying to accept low-paying wages after all the Australian hustles just made me feel like I should spend my time on better things. 

Plans I was here to actually do seemed so much harder to pull off. Injuries of my wrist and ankle are still annoying me. A lot of people don't seem to share the same goals as I do and I feel very alone in this. 30 days challenge would be so so much harder to pull off with this shitty monsoon season and constant injury problems, not to mention how busy my schedule is looking out to be. 

Having the need to commit to early waking-up hours and a 2 x 2hours to-and-fro journeys for a good 20+ days in the next months just for the sake of that motorbike license is truly becoming quite the task I've put myself into. Despite knowing the need for the internationally-accepted green light to ride a bike, knowing that I would probably spend a fortune on a vehicle that could clearly be an endangerment of my life here in Singapore is not quite something I'm looking forward to anyway.

Have gone to try coaching again although truthfully I am not quite keen for it. However, it's the most relatable career path goal for now and I guess getting back into that path would be a smart move, while trying to work with all my other goals, right? It's going to be quite the challenge to be honest, but hopefully it works out and keeps my bank healthy for the time being. (Managed to get back close to a grand by selling off my Tamron and Note 4 in the past two days tho, #winning)

Wishful realities of coming back to a specific loved one has been crushed well and truly, having to cope and accept the dreadful state of affairs on top of all the other worries surely has to be the cherry on top of the cake ay? Surprise surprise, there are ugly things in life we all have to face and all you can do is move on anyway.

I have successfully hit 10k subscribers on my Youtube channel and am truthfully happy with what I have built up. However, all these social media successes does not amount to anything when money is still not involved in it at all. Becoming a Youtube Creator was in the plans but I have not been getting any replies from them. Maybe a trip to the office is needed?

Project Dive Roll has turned out pretty well (although to be honest I felt like I had bigger goals to achieve but failed to because of miscellaneous excuses), Camberwell Trainings was just posted yesterday but clearly did not make too much of an impact as compared to the first one. I still have Oz Travels on the edit list and that would probably be the one that will take me the longest and I feel I am losing motivation to do it... but I have to get it out of the way though so that I can start on my Singapore edits.

Travel plans have been all over the place, don't quite feel that motivated to go to 4TLOM and Europe now, but the biggest thing I'm looking at is trying to live in an American city for 3 months instead of travelling the entire of America. Seems like a probable plan although I'm not sure how well it will turn out. Maybe or maybe not. 

Honestly, life altogether seems very amiss and I am lacking motivation which was what I am most afraid of back in Australia. I need to find something to get myself back on track. My body needs to recover ASAP.

Good news though, I may have a quick respite to Surabaya next month which could be what I need to get myself back into the sync of things.